(09.10.09)

(1)

Cyclical madness
clinically insane
what release is there
when you can't feel the pain?

Feeling again means
feeling remorse
dying again
it can't get much worse

living to die
dying to live
fight to survive
when does it end?

spiralling down
to a dismal demise
where do I turn to?
where do I hide?
where did I come from?
when did I die?

bleeding, breathing
heart still beating
eyes open
blindly seeing

waiting, wishing
hoping, praying
plastered on smile
while my life is decaying

facade of composure
memories of strength
habitual failings
turning to hate
vacantly living

spiritually dead
itching for closure
waiting to be fed

starving for purpose
drowning in sin
suffocating slowly
as the water seeps in

fighting for nothing
apathy's won
grabbing for solace
knowing its gone.





(2)

Hope
hoping
hoped
I'm done.
hoped for nothing
now its come.
hoped for answers
got them all:
just keep standing,
never fall.
hope that pushes
hope that's blind
hope thats foolish
got to try.
try to listen
try to learn
try to scream it
must be heard.
hope that echos
hope that speaks
hope I hope resides in me.





(3)

wait.
don't look
don't breathe
just stop and see
wait.
wait.
weight of the world came crashing down
weight of regret
weight of the pain
wait.
wait for redemption
YOU ARE THE CURE
wait for the answer
wait no more
don't wait.
just stop
and breath
wait and see,
wait no more
just believe
don't wait.