Sister Lauren Syrup

I don't know what it is in my nature that forces me to give up the second there is any possibility of failure. hence the fact that I continue to run through all of the same cyclical failures, bored of the growing apathy which has become the defining catalyst of my life. God, i need help.

And the worst part is that I didn't always suck this much. I used to be a person of passion, purpose, and potential. and now? I seem to have all the answers for everyone else, and yet I cannot seem to apply any of my wisdom to my own life. One by one, all the comforts of my life appear to be crumbling, and all I can manage to do is to stand safetly in the eye of the storm observing, anticipating, and apathetically waiting for the final swell.

At 22 i was supposed to be a college graduate, ready to take the final step into adult hood, and instead what do i have to show for myself other than an ever growing list of dissappointments. Not that this subject matter is anythign new... it seems to be the Lauren trend to have these painful epiphanies, muster up some sense of motivation which is forgotten by the time the next distraction presents itself. fuck.